Monday, June 16, 2008

To The First Man In My Life...

Dearest Dad,

Hey, it’s me! Just so you know, it’s Fathers’ Day today all over the world so I thought I’d drop by and write you a letter. Come to think of it, for the last twenty-five years you haven’t been with us to celebrate Fathers’ Day because you’re working abroad ever since I can remember. Even during your birthdays, which fall on the following month of July, you’re not here in the country to celebrate with us. But while you were mostly away throughout my childhood, I have in me too many happy memories of the three of us – you and mom and me – with every detail so vivid in my memory until now.

Dad, do you still remember how I was always looking forward to Sundays as a kid because we would spend the later part of the day in Luneta Park? Yup, you always give me piggy-back rides and would buy me sweet stuff afterwards. I remember you always bring a camera with us, and you and mom took turns taking pictures with me. Pigtails have been my signature hairstyle back then, and I was that perky kid in shirt-and-shorts-with-high-socks-and-sneakers attire. I still have them with me, the pictures taken in Fort Santiago, Baclaran Church, Manila Zoo, Harrison Plaza, and Nayong Pilipino. But the fondest picture I have is the one taken in Luneta. And yes, I remember how you and mom talked the usher into letting me watch Nightmare on Elm Street at Luneta Cinema way back. Some movie for a kid, huh?

Then came my first years at school. I really miss how you would give me a ride at the back of your Yamaha motorcycle in going to school. I think I was in first grade then, and I thought coming to school in your yellow motorbike was REALLY cool!!! In fact, I enjoyed it so much that I vowed to get my own motorbike someday (But it’s not like you’re ever gonna let me, right?). You also did the best you could in helping out in any way you can whenever I had some school activities or projects. (What can I say, your daughter was pretty much of a campus figure. Hahaha! Kidding!) But no matter how supportive you were, you were fiercely stern in your No-Boyfriend-While-You-Are-Still-Studying Policy. (Uhhmm… yeah, sure. I’m gonna shut my mouth on this one! Zip!) Too bad you didn’t make it on my college graduation day because you had to leave for abroad a couple of weeks before the graduation rites. Hopefully you’ll make when I graduate from my Masters Degree. (Absolutely NON-NEGOTIABLE!!!)

Dad, I just realized that you have the coolest disposition ever! I can only imagine how much effort it took so you won’t kick the jerks I dated in their respective asses. Seriously. You were able to handle mom’s temper at her worst, and while we did have our ‘moments’, you never spanked me nor laid a hand on me. Do you remember when you told me how you wished I’d find a guy who can love me as much as you love mom? To be honest, I’m pretty doubtful if I’ll be lucky enough to find such a guy out there. But if there’s someone who can love me even half as much as you love mom, then I’d still consider myself lucky. Really lucky.

Dad, I know I’m never the daughter to be very good in saying “I love you” in an outward manner, but I guess I’ve made it a point to make a life-long effort of making you proud of me as a daughter. And yes, I am never the easiest person to handle because of my stubbornness and pride, but I am doing my best to be a good person that you’ve always wanted me to be. We’ve come a long, long way Dad, and we’ll have many more years ahead of us to make up for lost times. But I guess there isn’t any lost time at all, because you make up for everything with your love for your family. Boyfriends come and go, and if it’s meant to be, I’ll have my own hubby to start a family with, someday. But I am so thankful to God that He has given you to be the first man in my life. I love you, dad!

Happy Fathers’ Day!

Always a daddy’s girl,
Lisa

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