Anxieties 101

I want you, but I’m afraid
Afraid that I’ve long forgotten how it is to love; to be loved.
There is this silent joy that threatens my defenses
Whenever I’d see your eyes smiling back at me.
Hate me for wanting this to be over
Because if this is a dream, then waking up may be the next worst thing to a heartbreak
I'm not sure, but I think I’m a scarred soul
But you, you hold the promise of love anew.
I do not want this.
Maybe because I never want to hold something that could slip away
Just like the sands of time.
Too many lies, too many tears
Much more than I could remember
Yet looking at you, I am tempted to walk towards your love;
Tempted to get burned
I want to push you away, to run and let my heart in hiding
Yet a small voice tells me that maybe you’re a good thing
That despite the crazy life I’ve led,
I still deserve some good things from life; that I still deserve you.
Hold my hand, will you?
I’m like a baby taking my first tentative steps again
Walk with me, will you?
The road is unsure, our horizon is still unknown
Catch me, will you?
Because everything that I am – my heart, my soul, my entire being
Is falling for you.